Thursday 16 October 2008

说好的幸福呢?

你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心 一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
我哭了,因为这歌词的情景跟我的很像,我们说好的幸福呢?因为距离的关系,我们说好的幸福就因为距离而食言吗?还是正如歌词所说的“你冷了 倦了”。而我呢?正如歌词“我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢”?你可以让我的回忆停止吗?或许可以,直到找到另外一个他!

笑忘歌

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳也都会是我们的
不会再仰慕更多了
唱一首属于我们的歌
让我们的伤慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的
青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的火车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就ok了
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
自己和自己打了一架
想都想不通反正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了
有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少痛苦还不是过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢
青春是人生的实验课
错也错的值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
我们都有属于自己的一首笑忘歌,每个人的笑忘歌都有不同的心情,希望大家的笑忘歌都是充满快乐的。。。

LONELY also can be BRIGHT

Before, saw the side friends all form a pair the pair, can think unavoidably oneself specially lonelily, even can suspect oneself has the huge question, only then can join acts alone variant's ranks.

Recently, friends around me r “not peacefully bid good-bye” in abundance, the reason nearly all communicates the question, some people scolded opposite party selfishly, some people complain opposite party too to be passive.The result is noisy the talk of the town, everybody both eyes are raining.。。

How, was unmarried I unexpectedly happiest?

As soon as careful thought, lonely, pain or not, with alone actually not direct relations.If is unable the academic society and the lonely peaceful coexistence, “lonely” this kind of thing cannot convalesce because of another person's hug, otherwise, but also wants one and undertakes personal maidservant's loneliness, suffers the degree is double.

Discovered now at last that, lonely also is one kind of beautiful.On some model person surface is the human spirit king, but the innermost feelings only pack the cold air actually.Such person is easier lonely.

In the society has many things, looked resembles is lets act alone sedulously the variant embarrassed.For example: A person goes to the dining room to eat the set meal, can increase the laughingstock for other table restaurant patron; A person attends the banquet, enjoys first may not be the good food.But is each kind of strange look enthusiasm receives cordially!

Society's cage blunderbuss values, make many people to loathe lonely one person very much, frequently “in order to seek the partner to seek the partner”, had forgotten actually any is true “the companion”.The share, the share, not necessarily takes two people to mount daily in the same place can achieve.The true loneliness, does not give up pays, too cares about the repayment.Very many people complained nobody approximately, perhaps, another person actually also painstakingly waits for you to tread the first step!

Lonely is not pitiful, is denied lonelily by oneself only then pitiful; Lonely is not wrong, once lives alone lives is inferior to die, only then can teach by the human: Has makes a mistake!

A flower must be in full bloom diligently, can attract many people to watch, to stroke.Same, own must certainly achieve the spirit first independently, joyful plentiful, can give the sense of joy exaggeration side each person.So long as looks side person is smiling, cannot feel was lonely.

Wednesday 15 October 2008

cheongsam

2day is my 1st time wearing cheongsam in my life, i'm feel very uncomfortable to wearing . but , bcos of SHE performance , i nid to wear it , this cheongsam i borrow fr my cousin.

when i change the cheongsam , all malay girls look at me like a super star , cos they seldom see ppl wearing cheongsam even me oso seldom see . they very like the cheongsam, they say can show out our body shape and look like more noble , got 1 malay girl ask me borrow the cheongsam to her , she want to try, but sorry , not mine , i dun dare to borrow her.

cheongsam is our traditional clothes , but v seldom to wear it even in CNY. especially younger generation.

i wear cheongsam just bcos our SHE project is about perhotelan , so v must act as waitress to serve ppl kuih raya cina , malay n india...i think i no nid to worry abt my SHE result d...hehe...

Tuesday 14 October 2008

time is pass

i found that 24 hour not enough 4 me,sleeping is important to me,so i must sleep 8-10hour per day.but i hv suscessful to challenge my record,36 hour i dint sleep...so now i'm very tired, cos yesterday just sleep 9 hour, u guys must blame me is it? but i dun care , this is my style.

exam is around the corner , but i stil relax,i dint pick up even a note to study yet.but the time is pass very fast , yet , nid to sumbit many assignment somemore...haiz !!!

WHAT IS THE LIFE? lecture , test , tutorial , assignment , meeting , practise...is it my life just full of this? i dun 1...this is a MECHANICAL life, 3 years university life just living together with this such things? no meaning to me!!!

suffer from insomnia

i had drunk teh ice when dinner,so now i’m suffer from insomnia.
u think what i’ll doing ? study? NO!!! watch movie/drama? NO! i was on9 whole nite!!! i was upload my photo to frenster,view my fren profile to get news fr them,leaving comment to my fren,download song,reading forum,reading newspaper,write blog,reply msg and so on…i was doing something boring…
tmr morning got test somemore , but now i’m suffer from insomnia,i dunno tmr whether i can concentrate or not,yet,tmr whole day class,omg!!! How is my life on tmr? is it i wan to challenge my record? 28hours is my old record , is it i hv to challenge it to become 30++hours? i dun think i can challenge it…
arrrrrr…….my eyes still dont wan to close it,haiz…my mentality is very tired but my physically still very full of vigor.

October 12th, 2008 at 2:59 pm

Sunday 12 October 2008

射手座~~终极分析乐观与忧愁


< 射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的,因为喜欢看的远,容易担忧的事情也就多,在他们的字典里,即使现在好,也不一定代表未来好,有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣,他们很轻易的就会放弃掉,可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以,这样的外在表现,就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住,追求自由的,没有压力的感觉。 > > 现实:常说射手座是追求梦想的人,但往往忽略了他们现实的一面,算计起来不会比处女座差哦,只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的,一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想,而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情,决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是,不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生,他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情,花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以,很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒,但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。


> > 拒绝低俗:几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的,其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上,外在的表现总是随和的,恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心,敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的,所以他们拒绝低俗,不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以,他们希望一切有关的事物,都是优雅的、高尚的,值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的,虽然表面上他们是很随和的。


> 多情:很多人说射手座多情,尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中,对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向,和他们谈恋爱,是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人,所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱,但是他们又很现实,所以你不能一文不名,各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神,你必须平衡的刚刚好,才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者,你有足够的神秘感,可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里,而盲目的爱你。一般,当然是没有完美无缺的人的,所以,可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人,会非常吸引他们;或者象双子那样,足够机智,懂得察言观色,捕捉他们的情绪,才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是,第一阶段,你们还不熟悉,他(她)爱上了你,非常热情。第二阶段,你们逐


> 渐熟悉,而他(她)开始龟毛,整天挑剔你的毛病,无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他(她)的挑剔过程,基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好;那么进入第三阶段,他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少,所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔,是源于对爱情的挑剔,对丧失自由感的恐惧。


> > 射手座人的人生,往往是幸运的,因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同,也许是他们终生追求的梦想,希望每一个射手人,可以找到他们的梦想!


> >   人人都说射手座是感情的骗子,对爱情不尊重,只追求片刻的快感,是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗?


> > 射手座是大孩子,天真与善良,遇到爱情时,可能让人感觉不认真,付出的比谁都少。可是,知道吗?射手座很想爱,却也很怕爱!刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出,谨慎的爱,好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱,一天一天的相处下,射手座把带刺的防备丢掉,开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人,在别人眼中,只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意,他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉,希望对方能感受自己的爱,想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。


> > 在射手座爱上了一个人,他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担,可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心,却也是最快认错,无论谁的错,他们都会包容,知道吗?射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛,会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩,在玩的同时,也希望把那一份好心情带给你,射手座是乐观的。
 

> > 人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐,可是呢?射手座难过时没有人知道,他不想让别人可怜自己,射手座不坚强,可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心,让你有依靠,分手后,他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆,也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福,却常常忽略了自己,全身都是伤也笑着告诉你,我很好不用担心。


> >   在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事,却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害,华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛?你的一点关心,心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好,把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你,射手座是不被了解的,可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为,让我承担吧,别让别人也受到伤害。所以,不要让快乐的射手座痛苦,别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装,认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱,是充满泪水的…


Saturday 11 October 2008

my heart is raining

下雨了。。。
因为看了一部蛮感人的戏,我的眼睛突然乌云密布,不用两秒钟就下起雨来,这雨下得一发不可收拾,而且是在半夜230,足足下了半个小时,下雨的其中一个原因是剧情很感人,另外一个原因是生气自己为什么那么没用?为什么每一样事情都做不好,为什么喜欢把事情憋在心里,为什么明知道自己没有错也要认错?为什么我那么没有胆量把意见提出来?为什么没有人可以当我的聆听者?许多个为什么出现在我脑海里。有时候,我觉得自己是幸运的,当需要某些东西时,在最后一分钟都可以让我找到,有时当我对某些事情感到绝望时,奇迹就会出现,但,我就是对自己的能力感到不满意,太过善良又会给人欺负,可是我就是不会耍恨啊!人往往都会看表面,认为眼前所见到的就是事实,为什么就不能往内看呢?在背后默默的努力,付出,你们看到吗?为什么就凭表面所看到的就对他人指责和怀疑,忽略了他在背后所做的一切。。。雨停了,整个人也松了,可能都把最近所承受的压力都哭了出来,心情也变晴朗了,接下来我还有很重要的是要做,我不可以再这么消极了.

Friday 22 August 2008

pretty boy=pity girl

I lie awake at night
See thing in black and white
I’ve only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

*oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty of mine
Just tell me you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside make me stay right beside you *

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a litter while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
my LSP300 lec asked who want join the singing competition n drama competition on next week..
she said our class must hv participants to join the function,so she asked many many many many time until she was angry with us...no choice, i warantty to join the singing competition , if not she will kisiao then our grade also will siao !!! so this is the way to me to proctect my LSP mark.
i'm full of confident with the competition when i put up my hand to sign to my lec that i joined the competition , but , now , i'm regret d, cos i feel that i cnt handle it , i cnt remember the lyrics even this is a simple lyrics . i tell my fren that i want to give up but she n he stop my mind to thinking , they gv me many advise n encourage me to continue . After thinking their advise n their ancouragable , i decide to continue it , but hor , haiz...i'm the person who like to consider many things n easy to be nervous, bcos this is my first time to sing english song on the university stage , acctually i used to sang the english song but at the primary school time,many years i dint sing english song on the stage d , yet, on uni stage will be very compete, that no mean i like to compete with others , i dont like to compete , i just want to enjoy my performance on the stage , i'm not thinking abt the prize . haiz...yet , i'm the person who are lessconfident , this is my poor habit also ,how can i solve this problem ? i still finding n improve it...
can i do it?
can i?
dunno...
u can do it!!!
u can!!!
am i ?
tell me can i ?
tell me am i right ?

Wednesday 13 August 2008

。。。

那天,和我妹妹在msn讨论奥运羽球赛的过程时,她突然告诉我说她被抽中要到国民服务,我说她非常幸运能够被抽中,我和我弟弟都没被抽中。其实在之前我就有一个预感,就是我们俩姐弟都没被抽中,我妹妹有可能被抽中,果然没错。她很不想去,我想爸爸妈妈也会很担心吧?我也开始担心了,不懂她会被派去哪里?她能不能适应?

Wednesday 6 August 2008

directing test...JANET

our directing test suppose to test by 2day , but bcos of some reason , janet ask us retest on monday . but the test on monday must be very serious , must taking out all element that she teach b4.
janet is the person who very serious n good lecturer , i'm very admire of her , but also scare of her . she very famous in this profession in national even in oversea.
so pity in her clas , but hor , u can learn many fr her wo , i like her so much but at the same time i hate her too. u must pass up n done the job that she ask u to do on time , she wont gv u chance to explain or do it again , so attend her clas is very pressure 1 n hor u must be punctually in her clas if not she wont let u come in the clas , even u r late 4 5 minuet . if u know the day u'll late den u must inform her 1 week b4.
40% test , all the gred on her hand , if dint do better then we'll in dangerous area . she wont gv the symphatize marks .
now we all concertrate on the test , no 1 will play play d. expect do the practising , we also need depend on fate , if not we'll be scold stupid again. she always scold her student stupid 1 , so some time we really x boleh tahan wif her....n hor her clas suppose to be end at 5pm 1 , but she always let us leave at 6pm even though she hv next clas or she will ask the students who is next clas come to join us ...

i just want to share with u guys abt my PA n lecturer...
hehe...
let off the mood so "song" loh...haha

Tuesday 5 August 2008

want or not???

someone ask me present a song that compose by myself in li chang in this friday.
but i think so many ...
i think that my song no nice 1 lah...
if i present it will be malu 1...
izzit i'm less confident?
yes,i'm a person who lessconfident 1...
"want present or not in this friday?"
jing yang call me n ask this , i din't promise him 1st , so i ask him let me consider 1st...
haiz, now , i'm stil thinking abt this...
how?

Monday 4 August 2008

stay the same

dont u ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be
the way you are exactly
dont u ever say
u dont like the way u are
when u learn to love urself
u are better off by far
and i hope u always stay the same
cause there's nothing about you
i would change
i think that you could be
whatever you want to be
if you could realize
all the dreams you have inside
dont be afraid
if u got something to say
just open up your heart
and let it show you the way
believe in yourself
reach down inside
the love you found
will set you free
believe in yourself
you'll come alive
have faith in what you do
you'll make it through
the meaning of the song is u must believe in urself , if u not believe in urself , who wanna believe with u?
i like dis kind of song so much...
meaningful...

Saturday 2 August 2008

boring arrrrrrrrrrr..................

actually i plan go back hometown 2day...
but i woke up at 1pm something , my sister phone me n ask me wheather i got go back o not,my mother cook many food 4 me . haiz...sorry ya mama , u doing so many things 4 me , long time i dint go back d. i promise wif u that i must go back on next week...papa i miss u loh n oso my cutie younger sister.
bcos of i dint go back so alone in hostel. but i got playing badminton with them. after play badminton v go hving dinner.
when i go back hostel i become alone again...
how come the life will too boring 1?
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
nothing to do...
go slp liao lah...

Friday 1 August 2008

victory celebration

1st of August is the wanderers concert's victory celebration,all of us gathering at yin suo at 630pm then go together , of course is by car . i follow jia yi's car , his car got jie rong , tian xing , li zhi n me....hehe...oh, our place to victory is golden BBQ steamboat at new world park there.
our car is reach most early 1 n finished lately oso is us...haha...jia yi n tian xing like to eat prawn also , i thought just me like to eat only,i think we ate the prawn is around 1kg , izzit? almost lah...haha...
i just ate a few only but stomach is very full liao...i dint eat the meat at all, just ate some fish , meat ball , mushroom , vegetable , corn , n drunk some drinks only...but i like the fruits which added the white chocalate n black chocalate 1 , this is 1st time i try the fruits like that...
of course we dont 4get to tk photo to keep the beautiful memory lah...
after that we go new world park to jalan-jalan n digest our food which inside stomach ...haha...

haiz...is quite hard 4 me to write blog in english...but i wan to challenge myself cos i'm student university mah...haha
but who wan warranty teach me english i'll very welcome...
come lah , teach me lah...
haha...

happy , happy n happy....

Thursday 31 July 2008

日夜颠倒

我最近过的生活都是日夜颠倒,连吃饭也是。
睡觉时间都是在白天,晚上时间都是在上网,做功课等等。。。
晚上也是吃最多东西的,今晚可算是我吃最多东西的一晚了。
从早上到下午6点才喝一杯麦片饮料,6点才去cafe买饭吃,过后开完会大概830pm和朋友去吃mcd,为了要拿到奥运的纪念杯,花了15块钱,吃得好饱哦;演绎会检讨完大概半夜2点多,又和他们去吃nasi lemak ,肚子还饱饱,可是直觉告诉我一定要吃,所以就叫了一碟和彦婷share。
好不容易才把体重减轻了一点,现在我自己又把它找回来,不行!!!我一定要把它甩得远远的,让它不能再回到我身边!
我看我需要很长的时间来恢复正常的作息习惯。
还有就是每星期一定要做运动至少三次!!!

Wednesday 30 July 2008

aiya.....wrong press...

i wrong press on the blog i wrote b4 this....
so now continue ....
my english is very poor 1, so if some words or grammar is wrong pls correct me ya ...thx ...hehe...
today i woke up on 12pm by msg alarm fr my fren which ask me wan doing part time job at Gurney plaza. Bcos of the wheather was very hot so i streaming with sweat , even after tk the bathed,i oso felt very hot...
i no go out today , 1st lazy , 2nd save money. if i dint go out then i can save money,i hving my breaklunch(breakfast+lunch) n dinner in my room , even cafe got selling . i must save money in this sem , cos ptptn 4 this sem just rm600 only.rm600 how can i live 4 this sem? anyone can sponsor me ?haha...
jy if u read this blog dont laugh me ya...if can , correct me lah...haha
n oso for those who good in english....
thx 4 ur teaching lah....
haha....

no class....

i hv no classes every thursday ,so i plan to doing my stuff on thursday like cleaning my room , doing my assignment , play badminton or jogging , and so on.
but i wake up on 12pm every thursday 1 , how can i doing so many things ? yet , i'm not good in time managment .

tell u abt my life today.

today i woke up by msg alret

没用

随着迎夜的结束,是否代表着我已经忙完所有的活动了呢?
我看只是暂时罢了吧!
有时候我会想是不是我太过贪心了呢?
明知道自己的能力有限,还要把太多的事情扛在身上,到最后还要别人来替我完成。
可是不只我一个人,看,其他人也是把很多事情,任务扛在身上,他们都能做好每一件事,为什么我却不能?
王慧敏,为什么你那么没用?
虽然你已经改变了很多,为什么还是那么没用?
王慧敏,你真的很令人讨厌!
王慧敏,你什么时候才能变能干?
王慧敏,你可以不要那么懒惰吗?

testing

i try to create the blogspot account 4 myself b4 , but unsuccesful.
but i dint give up , finally already created.
now i got 3 place to write my blog , 1 is frenster , 1 is window live space , n 1 is here , i'm stil thinking wan to move my blog to here or not ?
cos blogging at frenster there , all frenster's fren can read. if i move to here nobody know perhaps,of course, i can announce them but bcos of some reason so stil thinking abt this.
hehe...